Thursday, July 17, 2008
I'm a Mom not a Monk...so What Now?
(from St. Herman Press)
I've been reading Fr. Seraphim Rose, and really appreciating the story of this intellectual Berkley professor struggling with the world and gripping towards Orthodoxy.
However, I struggle as a mom knowing how to live my life, fully given to the Lord and live in this world.
Anne Voskamp, who strives to live a liturgical life, though not Orthodox, had a beautiful post about serving God from within the world. I know that Orthodox teaching differs from this (thus, all the desert asethetics), but don't know where I fit in.
From one of Fr. Seraphim's mentors:
The movement of my mind quieted down, died out in concentration interspersed with prayer. A sense of being responsible for each word, thought, and feeling suddenly rose in me: a warning that these can pollute, disfigure, or erase that flowing presence of Divinity
This sounds great to me, but how to replicate it as a mother?
How to quiet my mind?
How to discern which things in the world are okay to enjoy and which can pollute or erase the flow of the Holy Spirit?
How to help my children hone in on God and not get caught up in the world?
Some things are obvious: I'm not going to play vulgar videos for them.
Other things seem fine, spiritually good even, but I wonder at what point they might become distractions: cello lessons, boy scouts, etc.
Well readers - it's time for your input.
How do I live in the heart of Christ as a mom, not a monk?